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natalie
I can’t change anything.
That’s the sentence I hear most repeatedly in my head.
I can’t change that I’m blonde and blue eyed and ‘5 “7.
I can’t help that my name is Natalie Taylors.
I can’t change that Megan and Alina follow my every move and agree with everything I say.
I can’t change that my brain tells me what to do and I can’t do anything to resist it.
Flip the light switch.
I can’t change the past either.
I can’t change that my mother died of preeclampsia when giving birth to me.
I can’t change that my tenth grade boyfriend cheated on me with a nineteen year old.
I can’t change that I’m the reason Autumn’s parents found out her sister Ivy was a lesbian.
I can’t change that Ivy was kicked out of her home at sixteen and eventually died from an
antidepressant overdose.
Flip it again.
And perhaps the worst of all, I can’t change the future.
I can’t change how the death of Autumn’s sister will affect her life.
I can’t change how my decisions as a child will affect mine.
I can’t change how wrong this year will go.
Flip it once more.
And I can’t change what will happen on my seventeenth birthday.