natalieI can’t change anything.That’s the sentence I hear most repeatedly in my head.I can’t change that I’m blonde and blue eyed and ‘5 “7.I can’t help that my name is Natalie Taylors.I can’t change that Megan and Alina follow my every move and agree with everything I say.I can’t change that my brain tells me what to do and I can’t do anything to resist it.Flip the light switch.I can’t change the past either.I can’t change that my mother died of preeclampsia when giving birth to me.I can’t change that my tenth grade boyfriend cheated on me with a nineteen year old.I can’t change that I’m the reason Autumn’s parents found out her sister Ivy was a lesbian.I can’t change that Ivy was kicked out of her home at sixteen and eventually died from anantidepressant overdose.Flip it again.And perhaps the worst of all, I can’t change the future.I can’t change how the death of Autumn’s sister will affect her life.I can’t change how my decisions as a child will affect mine.I can’t change how wrong this year will go.Flip it once more.And I can’t change what will happen on my seventeenth birthday.