I am SOO tired if dealing with the same shi/ everyday. Like I literally got into a little ball and criedand coughed my life away. I feel rlly bad cuz I feel like I making my friends hate me and my gf. I hateit when they always bring her up in random conversations and go ‘see look! Ur putting her b4 me!’And they know how much I hate it and amount of pain I feel when that happens. Like are youserious rn? We’re in public can you calm down? I’m literally trying my best and my hardest to fulfillyour needs, my grandmothers needs, my family’s needs, my gf’s needs, and mine especially. Giveme some time let me think and try to change this. This is literally every day please stop. I hatehaving to go down the same road every fkn day. I am done. i am drained. i seriously need a break.all this commotion is WAY too much. i worry way to much abt you then i do myself. let me rest alittle bit. i mean I’ve got to deal with every time I look at tht one girl all the pain and memories floodback. I see her everyday and she literally sits next to me in choir. Do yk how difficult it is to sit thereand smile at her when in every bone in my body I wanna just yank her hair out? Please. I beg.Unless my gf is doing smth to me tht I have no clue abt, I want no negative comments or anythingabt who I should’ve been with or stayed with. I left them for a reason, and some reasons to bettermyself. I rlly don’t wanna go down tht route. I’m stressed enough as is, and I already have doubts. Ioverthink and yk that. So why would you sit here and go “I hate you two together.” ?? Please. I’mbegging you I want all this to stop. It’s not funny or laughable or anything. It’s making me doubtmyself all over agian. So leave that topic WAYYY in the back of ur mind. Ima go now cuz ik you guys are tired of my problems but I needed to let that out. I love you, and bye❤