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I…I can’t just embrace the silence…my thoughts are too loud without Fan…
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Life has many changes, some that push our boundaries. It gets under our skin and peels at what little control
we have. But just understand each scab it rips off, each new change it brings forth? We have defenses, we
have support, we too can change. And with change comes development, and that in turn will mean a more
determined and stronger you. I’m not saying to forget fan, i’m not saying to not cry for fan, i’m saying to
move for ward for fan… and for yourself. There’s no point in torturing yourself with the past, because you’ll
always be ahead of it. Don’t beat yourself up over fear, over stress, over discomfort. Because after the
storm? There will always be a peaceful calm that washes over you, accompanied by the same horizon, but a
new one in a sense. Because the world always changes, and so can your fan. But it’s up to you, whether you
want to live out the storm, whether you want to see that horizon, whether you think you can live with
that change. I know you can do it, but do you?
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How inspirational of you, Ilhan…maybe it is time to let go of Fan. I have to do it for him, just like you said. I
have to learn to move on…to accept the inevitable change…Thank you, Ilhan…I must do it for myself, to
become a stronger person, and to nally give Fan the relief he has longed for after all these years…
I must adapt, I must develop into an even better person, and the only way to do that is to let go of the past…
no matter how painful it is, I know it will bring me peace to nally release Fan from his duty as my…cooling
device…?…
(Did…you really have to write all that?…)