TraumaSay you're there when I feel helplessIf that's true, why don't you help me?It's my fault, I know I'm selfishStand alone, my soul is jealousIt wants love, but I reject itTrade my joy for my protectionGrab my hand, I'm drowningI feel my heart poundingWhy haven't you found me yet?I hold you so proudlyTraumas, they surround meI wish you'd just love me backSay you're here, but I don't feel itGive me peace, but then you steal itWatch them laugh at all my secretsScream and yell, but I feel speechlessAsk for help, you call it weaknessLied and promised me my freedomGrab my hand, I'm drowningI feel my heart poundingWhy haven't you found me yet?I hold you so proudlyTraumas, they surround meI wish you'd just love me backGrab my hand, I'm drowningI feel my heart poundingWhy haven't you found me yet?That’s a JokeHappyDear God, please, hear me outI know it's been a couple yearsSince I've reached out and said helloI bet You're wonderingWhy I keepObsessing on and stressing all the little thingsWhen I should beLiving life and soaking up the memoriesI know I've been selfish, I haveNo excuse to give you, it's trueHanging by a thread's how I liveI don't know why, but I feel more comfortableLiving in my agony, watching my self-esteemGo up in flames, acting like I don'tCare what anyone else thinks, when I know truthfullyThat that's the furthest thing from how IFeel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask yaTo pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped inThe truth is, I need help, but I just can't imagine whoWho I'd be if I was happyYeah, been this way so longIt feels like something's off when I'm not depressedI got some issues that I won't addressI got some baggage I ain't opened yetI got some demons I should put to restI got some traumas that I can't forgetI got some phone calls I been avoidingSome family members I don't really connect withSome things I said I wish I would of not let slipSome hurtful words that never should of left my lipsSome bridges burned, I'm not ready to rebuild yetSome insecurities I haven't dealt with, yesI'll be the first to admit that I'm a lonely soulAnd the last to admit I need a hand to holdLosing hope, headed down a dangerous roadStrange, I know, but I feel most at home when I'mLiving in my agony, watching my self-esteemGo up in flames acting, like I don'tCare what anyone else thinks, when I know truthfullyThat that's the furthest thing from how IFeel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask yaTo pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped inThe truth is, I need help, but I just can't imagine whoWho I'd be if I was happyDon't know what's around the bendDon't know what my future isBut I can't keep on living inLiving in my agony, watching my self-esteemGo up in flames acting, like I don'tCare what anyone else thinks, when I know truthfullyThat that's the furthest thing from how IFeel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask yaTo pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped inThe truth is, I need help, but I just can't imagine whoWho I'd be if I was happyIf I was happyIf I was happy I'm not on your radar? Then your radar's brokeDon't blame me for the way y'alls jokesFall flat, get your mouth slapped, ain't no hoaxI get an inkling, they picked me for the weak linkI'm gonna have to poseA question for the ones that don't accept that I've been exceptional'Cause the moment I get involved is the moment a song takes offSo how could you think I wouldn't last long in a gameThat I was made to play? What do y'all take me for?Rest assuredWhen I do come back to tour, it'll be Christmas morningIn a way 'cause I'ma wake up with a present so big, they'll jump for joyYeah, let it be known, I'm better when I'm outta controlI can not be the butt of a jokeI'm cutting in the front of you posers talkin' like you really a proWhen you ain't even part of the convoNothin' but an amateur, I'll slow down when I want it colossalOnly way to put it if I choseI could be bigger, maybe consider it a bit if it was helpin' you allTo comprehend, you condescend (you're gone)Incompetent, the consequences (are)Hard to miss, it's common sense (I'm on)One, so wrap your head around it (or)I might have to get up off the porchShow you how it's done, I got the formPower trippin' on me, get destroyedPull the plug, I'm rollin' up your cordFool me once, shame on youFool me twice, shame on youFool me three times, hold up, rewindThat's not even possibleMe, I keep it honorableWho's your favorite? Let me knowTally up, count the votesWasn't me? That's a jokeYeah, ayy, that's a jokeThat's a, that's a jokeFunny, yeah, that's a jokeThat's a, that's a jokeFunny, woo, that's a jokeThat's a, that's a jokeFunny, ayy, that's a jokeThat's a jokeYeah, I took a minute now, I'm at the better end of all of itThe day I wanna quit'll be a bitter one to swallow'Cause I meant it when I said I wasn't really into audiblesI guess you gotta call 'em when your odds are at the bottomAnd it's stackin' up against you, it's a pity, but they gotta give a nod to meI'm runnin' with the best, I been the kind to make a profitOff of everything that you told me was impossibleSo why would you continue with the narrative And not admit I'm someone incredible, look of a generalHit 'em with the end of shovel, they wanna forget itI put 'em on the ground and I get up and open the pit of my stomachTo remind 'em again I'm a whole different animalWhatever the case, I'ma get it, I'm in it, no doubt, I would give itEverything if I gotta, but not if the commasAre pushin' me to run with the common, the jokin' asideIf you took away the dummies and bias, you'll notice that I'm insane (insane)Improved a lot, but I still feelIt's hard to keep my lid from poppin' off, but I prevailHow you gonna skip over the detailsAnd tell me to be focused? Hold that thoughtDon't tell me you mean well if you don't mean wellI call the shots, but don't need my hand heldWhen it comes to makin' recordsWho you know that does that better?The way I connect lettersYou'd think that the alphabet was made by meWhen it comes to storytellin', I'm great at itTune in or get tuned out, my face got redder'Cause I'm embarrassed for the ones unaware of my workWhat, did I stutter?Known to be cordialBut those that think that never seen me in a war zoneMy delivery gets better every time I spitI don't keep my sword lowTell me why would I do that?Doesn't make sense when you're in a game this cutthroatIf you wanna maintain control, then you gotta keep upIf you can't handle the workloadSomebody else willHow could you call me unskilled?That's like lookin' at Mount Everest and then calling it a small hillNot at all thrilled, I'm in awe stillTryin' not to laugh, but it just spillsOut sometimes, I been writin' chillJust chew on this 'til the record's built, okayFool me once, shame on youFool me twice, shame on you (on you)Fool me three times, hold up, rewindThat's not even possibleMe, I keep it honorable (okay)Who's your favorite? Let me know (let me know)Tally up, count the votesWasn't me? That's a jokeYeah, ayy, that's a joke (joke)That's a, that's a joke (joke)Funny, yeah, that's a joke (joke)That's a, that's a joke (joke)Funny, woo, that's a joke (joke)That's a, that's a joke (joke) Funny, ayy, that's a jokeThat's a joke